impulse control log

[recoveringcutter]

1.SELF-INJURY THOUGHTS: cutting deep

2.TIME AND DATE: 12/10/09 5:40

3.LOCATION: My Room

4.SITUATION: I'm trying to find what ever i can to put on ebay and went into stephy's room to get the ipods i bought and gave her and she made a comment that no one is going to trust me. she got pisse went in her room and closed the door. she came back out when my mom was in my room and she asked which one she wanted. she wanted the big one. she was standing by my door while i was crying and she tossed it and said "you know what keep it." and stormed off.

5.FEELING: angery, numb, no one cares about me,

6.WHAT WOULD BE THE RESULT OF SELF-INJURY? that all the pain and anger will go away,

7. WHAT WOULD I BE TRYING TO COMMUNICATE WITH MY SELF-INJURY?
that i wish that stephy would see how bad im in pain and see how bad she has hurt me


8.ACTION TAKEN: end up coming on here writing this.
9.COMMENTS: that i still want to cut, im gonna go to my sister and step brothers house tomorrow to try and relax, and idk what else

[2jules7]

Good job coming here. It really sucks she cant see your hurting. I hope your day tomorrow will help you relax and maybe think about a plan for selling stuff and whatever else you need to do without her around. Hang in there buddy, it'll get better.

[Chy]

I'm glad you didn't cut, but Jon, the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting different results, at this point with Steph you shouldn't be surprised any longer. I hope you can eventually move on from this relationship, not until then will you begin to heal. *hugs*