Impulse Control Log

[NoOneCanHearYou]

IMPULSE CONTROL LOG


1.SELF-INJURY THOUGHTS:

Cutting, burning


2.TIME AND DATE:

1:02 pm, June 14, 2009

3.LOCATION:

Sitting on the couch at my dads.

4.SITUATION:

Long story, ill send another forum...


5.FEELING:

Very strong urges.

6.WHAT WOULD BE THE RESULT OF SELF-INJURY?

Feeling better with myself, but Terry would be pissed and probably fed up with it.

7. WHAT WOULD I BE TRYING TO COMMUNICATE WITH MY SELF-INJURY?




8.ACTION TAKEN:


Still sitting.

9.COMMENTS:



__________________

[2jules7]

Dont give up, just keep staying strong. Is there anything you can do to distract you?

[Chy]

I see you skipped answering #7, this is one that is really important to address.. try to answer it okay? Be strong, don't give in.

[Done-With-It!]

HPe your ok

[NoOneCanHearYou]

Originally Posted by Chy

I see you skipped answering #7, this is one that is really important to address.. try to answer it okay? Be strong, don't give in.

Didn't really mean to skip #7

but....I really don't know the answer to it =/

[Done-With-It!]

Originally Posted by NoOneCanHearYou

Didn't really mean to skip #7

but....I really don't know the answer to it =/

We cut to deal with feelings, like anger, grief, sadness,
being overwhelmed, someone hurting us.

We usually keep that feeling inside of us for as long as we can until
we feel like we are going to burst, then it's like we have to cut
to get those feelings out or we will explode.

Or someone has or is hurting you or your feelings, you don't want to hurt
them back so you hurt yourself instead.

You are angry and don't know how to deal with it, things don't feel fair,
because of A, B, or C but we've been taught it's not okay for us to get
angry, so we can tell someone we are angry by cutting.

Those are just a few reasons I've cut and have known others to cut.
Look inside of yourself and/or write down what's going on.
You have feelings that you are trying to convey that you don't know how,
so cutting feels like that answer.

Just my guess.

The thing is though when you cut and don't deal with those feelings it will never move you to a different and better place.

I don't like to feel any of those things, but each time I have it's been for a reason, I've realized when I'm angry it's okay, I have a good reason to be, as well as when I am sad, upset or whatever it is.
I don't apologize or hate myself for having feelings anymore.
And I won't hurt myself like I used to, my feelings are worthy and they move me to make change when I need to.
It is hards Nochy, but our feelings are actually are best friends, they protect you, they don't hurt you like we often think.

That's been my experience.

So I hope you keep on looking inside yourself to try and find out what it is that you are trying get out. I'm glad you came here, you are doing really good.



Luv ya little sis..

[Chy]

So I hope you keep on looking inside yourself to try and find out what it is that you are trying get out.

I know that seems like the impossible to achieve but just know the answer is there, it's so hard to look inside when we're hurting but in order to heal it's what we must do... praying for ya kiddo.