For the second time. :/

[annihilate_me]

Ok so here goes a long story.

Tom and I share a mutual friend. His name is Chaz. Chaz and I have been hanging out a lot lately, not sure why. We just have been. Well, for the last couple weeks, he's been pushing it down my throat to talk to Tom. And I kept telling him no, and kept pushing it. Well, Tom actually called me after that and we talked on the phone for almost three hours.

Well over the weekend, for the fourth of July, I planned a camping trip with my little sister. By Friday, half the people I invited ditched last moment, so I was complaining to Chaz about it, and he suggested to invite Tom. So I figured if we were going to try and be friends, the first time we hang out should be around other people, just in case. Well, I called and invited him and he was busy for the weekend, so that was kind of a relief for me.

Well since everything went down in December I've been trying to just forget everything that happened. When I was in out patient rehab, they suggested that I write him an apology letter and I did and he was a dick to me, so I said **** it and didn't bother anymore. But that was like back in March, I believe so it happened before what I'm talking about now.

Well. I was online last night and he IMed me and asked me how camping went and I was like it was good, but lame. Blah, blah blah. Well he was like, you know... you were the best I've ever been with,. And I didn't know what to say to that because... well. Who would? So my reply was... that doesn't look like a rainbow does it? and I said that because we had the drawing program loaded on the messenger and I was just doodling. He asked what I was doing up at 3 in the morning, and I was like insomnia gets the worst of you. He was like, do you mind if I come over? So I was like.... um, sure if you want to make that 45 minute drive. And he did.

When he was over, it was like nothing that happened between us had even happened. I mean, it was awkward at first, but we talked about the same things we talked about when we were together. He took me to lunch, we just went to chipotle's and got a burrito. He held the door for me like he always did, he was just too sweet.

When we got back from lunch, we talked some more and then he had to get ready to leave. So I walked him down to his car, and we stood there for a moment, and he did what we used to do when we were together... he put his forehead against mine, stared into my eyes, said he had a nice time and kissed me and he left.


IDK, I didn't do anything sexually with him. But. I just have so much history with him over the past two years that I don't know what to do.

I've spent so much time forgetting him and moving on and doing things with my life.

And all of a sudden, he's back in it and it's like he never left.

I just don't know what to do.

I'm so confused.

[Hopefloats]

It can be hard when we encounter someone like this that we have or had feelings for.
I always think it is a good idea to remember why a relationship ended, and to go over our feelings and think about where you both are right now.

If you should begin anew, I think it is always a good idea to have LOTS of communication so you both know how you feel and which direction you both may want to take. We cannot read minds, and those tender moments can stay confusing if we don't allow the communication to go with it.

I hope everything works out for you!!

[Chy]

I know it can be so hard to sort out when you want to follow your heart but your head tells you otherwise. I do believe in second chances but with an "approach with caution" sign firmly implanted in your brain. So I say if it continues, to take it very slow so not to break your heart all over again. *hugs*

[Done-With-It!]

I say run Forest run........


I would really look at how toxic your relationship was and how upset you were most of the time. Of course I'm sure when you posted here we didn't here as much of the good and th bad, but I worry about how self destructive you were at times and how upset you were often. JMO though. I'm sure whatever you decide will be best for you.

[2jules7]

Everyones given you good advice here and all of it is something to definitely think about. But like I told you earlier, the ball is in your court and only you can make the decission as to which play to play. I still think that if you do want something to come of this, you guys need to sit down and talk about everything that went on before and go from there. You know the pain that you went through the first time so I wouldnt rush into anything expecting things to be like they were before. Im sorry if I come off as a jerk here, but I just dont want you to get hurt again, Amanda. Just really think about what you're doing before things get too serious.