Update! ! !

[recoveringcutter]

so it's been a while since i posted one of these.. so here's my update

my social life

has changed a lot in the past few weeks.. ever since working at cedar point i've made the best of friends and some of the coolest guest. i sometimes just chat with the crew i work with ( games crew ) but i wil chat with other employee's and have fun talking about the dumbest guest we've had.. i've also made good friends with some co-workers who are international..


my health,

i haven't had any thoughts about cutting in a long time. it;s been about 2 months and 6 days since i last SI. With working at cedar point i don't have to deal with family drama as much but now my sister thought she was gonna move with this guy to illions so she quit her job at mijer's. ever since then there has been family drama and that make's me happy that i have a job and my sister has no excuse to say that i don't.. she ahs been on the internet so much that my mom had thoughts about taking the internet off and that made me mad.... but back to the subject.. i started the summer weighing about 205 - 210 pounds. now i weigh about 185 and i can tell i'm losing weight cause my shorts (whcih are size 36) are starting to get lose on me. so thats another plus


my family.

ummmmm... hmmmmm i really don't know how to put this. yes my family is doing better but there are still times where they fight over the stupidest things and i get pulled into some how even when i'm working, not at home, with a group of friends, or on my day off. it's likethere's so many episode's of jerry springer going on at my house that it's about the hit the 100th episode. there have been times growing up where there will be fights and i would blame myself for the fight starting cause i didn't do what i was told or i didn't do right away. even when i was about 8 or 10 i felt like every time when a fight broke out it was my fault fro my family for fighting.. there have also been times where my parents came close to breaking up.. and one of those times was when i was going through SI... but right now i hate to say this but i think most of the fighting is cause of my sister not having a job and doesn't seem to care if she dose or not..


over all

my life has seem to be getting better. i'm truning to myfriends for support when i need to talk to them, right now i'm a little worried for my friend cause his brother was shot about 8 times in the chest and i'm trying to be there for him as much.. i'm tring to keep in touch with my other friends that i graduated with but it's hard when they all just about went off to college.. i'm starting to find myself praying just about every night before i fall asleep and i hope to one day to find god..


so that's about it.. that's my update for you guys

[Chy]

I'm glad you've found some nice friends to support you and hang out. Congrats on you taking care of you and 2 months SH free! That's really good! How's the kidney stones?

[recoveringcutter]

the pain in my groin area is gone but like i told my doctor. i'm still havin some small pain on my right side of my abadmen and he can't figure out what's wrong casue he's not sure if i pulled something or strain something so he wants me to get an ultrasound done tomorrow and i have to drink 24 oz of water 30 minutes before the whole thing... and he wants to make sure that there's no stones or anything around there i guess

[BM <3]

You poor thing :[
I'm in a sufficient amount of physical pain myself so I can sorta relate.
Hope you start to feel better soon!
x

[annihilate_me]

Congratulations on being 2 months free from S.I.! That's a great accomplishment!

[recoveringcutter]

thanks guys.. on tuseday i went for the ultrasound and lets just say that must of been the longest time i held that much water.. i really don't know how long it last but i was on my back for about 15 minutes, on my left side for about 10 minutes, on my right side for about 5 minutes and i thought it was done.. NO.. she then put some pressuer on my lower groin and i was like "ok, i gotta pee now!" but after that i had to get ANOTHER x-ray done.. *sigh* i hope they find out whats wrong