A new addiction.

[Formaldehyde]

I have this friend.
When I'm around him,
I get this rush.

The same rush,
That I got from cutting.
It feels so good.
Just to be in his presences.

But it's hard for us,
To hang out.
Cause of our schedules.

and I'm fighting the urge,
To cut.
I need that feeling he brings.
More than he can give it to me.

He's like my new drug...

[Done-With-It!]

Let yourself have this feeling of what you are having,
and just go with it..
We always want to change what we are feeling or
we want more of it, or something, or we think we
can't handle it.
You can, just ride it out. Enjoy it without cutting.
You don't need to cut to get through life.
Keep telling yourself that. That's what I have to do.
Cutting keeps us stuck, it stops us from doing what
we should do next. I'm realizing that more and more
everyday. I've had to really stop myself from cutting
a lot the last few weeks, but that has pushed me to
take action and just do stuff instead...
Let yourself be...
And sometimes when we are that happy we think we
don't deserve so we should punish ourselves.
Just don't let yourself cut, whatever the reason may be.
LOL, I keep putting lotion on instead. I smell like Victoria
Secret 24/7.

Originally Posted by Formaldehyde

I have this friend.
When I'm around him,
I get this rush.

The same rush,
That I got from cutting.
It feels so good.
Just to be in his presences.

But it's hard for us,
To hang out.
Cause of our schedules.

and I'm fighting the urge,
To cut.
I need that feeling he brings.
More than he can give it to me.

He's like my new drug...

[Velvet]

If you enjoy this person so much and the "rush" of the interaction is so satisfying to make you not cut, then think of ways you can produce the "rush" even when the other person isn't around you. You say your schedules don't always allow you to be together. So when you aren't together, write letters to them, create drawings just for the other person, daydream about the next time you are together, plan your next meeting...on paper, meaning write down each thing you will do, or say or places you will go. This should stimulate that "rush" almost as much as being together. Feeling this "rush" is good, but it is not a solution to the cutting. Continue to explore other options to not cutting. But as long as you have this person in your life, go for it and feel good!

[annihilate_me]

The advice Miss.Done and Miss. Velvet has gaven you is amazing, and I do believe I couldn't have given better. There's so much more you can do to get that 'rush' without cutting. Find time, schedule a date where the two of you can hang out. See a movie, go to a restaraunt. What ever you do, just remember to take time for yourself, care for youself. STAY SAFE!!!