hello i have not been here for a while

[thenewguy8t88]

ok i have not been here for a long time i lost track of how long ago it was since i was here. anyways right now i have done and accepted a few things which have helped me out a little bit. mostly that is i have accepted that most of my "friends" suck. however recontly i have done something else over the past few months that i am not happy with but it honestly it helped me alot and now since yesterday i cant do it anymore. it was not drugs or drinking or smoking of self harm but its still pertty bad what i did. i am also sort of starting to accept who i am. but most people from around here can not accept thats who i am. and so its extremly hard for me to make friends around here. honestly i whish i could go back to doing what i was doing untill yesterday it really made feel good about myself for the frist time in a long while but now its over and now i dont know what i am going to do.