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cant sit still
so me and my fieance went on vacation to tennesse for about, 4-5 days and it was great (way to many pics to post) we also stoped at her dads house in kentuky and it was about a 2 hour drive and that was ok. the next day we went headed down to tennesse. thats when it got little bad. it was about a 4 hour drive and we ran into some rain and some strange things and then thats where i started to tap on my water bottel, wiggel my fingers, tap on. my camera, moving my legs and so on. i couldnt remember how many times she told me to stop moving and sit still. rest of the time we were down there it was ok.
heading to her dads house after our vacation was over with i was doing it again. and we stayed there for about a day or so. we headed to her house for the night. i was able to sit still for 2 hours which i was suprised. me, her, her mom, her sis, and her sisters friend went to this farm place where there was putt putt golf, where we could pet and feed goats, and other things. way there i was in the back seat and sat still for like 20-30 minutes. it was great there and we had fun. we had dinner and got ice cream and something was telling me to get a cone but i didnt. i finishe my ice cream before we got back to her house and i was messing with my spoon. my gf was in the passanger seat and ehr mom was driving. i started to tap the spoon around in my mouth and i saw my gf turned back and looked at me and i smiled and just stoped.
on the way back to my house i was at my worse not even a hour on our way to my house i was taping on my camera, messing with my wallet and my cell phone, and other things. she soon toke my wallet and put it on her lap. i could tell it was buggin her a little so i toke the long sleeves to my hoody i was wearing and tied them together to keep me from taping and such. i was like that for about 30 minutes or so.
now im wondering if theres any way i can stop this?
i really want to stop so my fieance can be happy and so i wont drive her nuts. NOW, i dont have ADD, ADHD, or anything like that. i didnt'a have any sugar so i know it wasnt a cause of hyperness. my fiancee said i should try hypnoses.
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