Sorry but I need some help.

I didn't mean to post this in the just a question forum, but it wouldn't let me on the other forums there are.
I just wanted to say that it's not going so well in my life. I am a cutter, and now more recently I have been experimenting with prescription drugs. I don't know why I let myself start the drug thing. I know I need some serious counceling and help, but my parents have decided to ignore my cutting. They don't know about the drugs. I asked vaguely about it, but they just keep saying if you do it again then we will send you away. That's what they say all the time. I think that they just don't want anyone else knowing about their **** up of a daughter...how embaressing. I actually want to be locked up. Maybe I'll stop huriting myself if I am, because by no means am I gonna stop when I'm here. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I'm angry all the time and I hate being around everyone. I hate myself for allowing my parents to catch me cutting, and I hate myself for giving in to the drugs and the cutting. I just don't know what's wrong with me. The things that I think scare me sometimes and I don't know what the hell I am anymore. I dunno what happened to me. I can fake it all and pretend to be okay with everyone I'm around, but I thikn it's all starting to seep through, cause my closest friends are starting to get scared of me. I'm just tired of being so angry, and feeling anything. I dunno....I'm sorry for this majorly depressing vent. Thanks to those who are listening though. I really appreciate it.

[Chy]

Don't be sorry! That's why we're here. I'm sorry you are hurting and in a bad place.It sounds like you could be suffering from depression. Are you in school? Is there support services or counselors there? Is there one friend who would go to a clinic with you for a check up so you can talk to a doctor.

Cutting is a way of releasing the hurt and emotions to difficult to face and cope with, you are NOT alone and many here are trying to help themselves through supporting each other here with this very issue.

If and when you feel comfortable enough please feel free to register, if not you can keep posting here. The hardest thing to do is ask for help and if your parents are blowing you off then ask someone else you trust. You could use the live support!

[hellzombiex]

just keep trying not to. i dont kno from first hand, but it takes people souls, when they do it it just keeps making everything worse. and if you want to go and talk to someone, try to go to someone who really cares about you, not a friend but like someone whos ur soul friend. cause if you just keep lying to people sometimes they might not trust you anymore. but im not trying to be negitive but people care about you... if you think about it, even i care about you and im sure chy is too. so keep trying and when you slip up keep on trying and never give up. ... i hope this helps and im sure you can talk to me in the furture about anything