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[Endorphin]

Nothing to say but don't touch um......i wont go into detail about whyyou shouldnt because theres a thread about it where u clicked this one!

I just woke up in the bathroom wit a butane can and a scalpel in hand. But the weird thing is that scalpel was hidden very very securely..i dont remember going thru the hassle of getting it o.o anyway..

Thats all folks near death experience brang me to post. yall almost lost me like that *snaps finger* Oh well maybe next time..

[Done-With-It!]

Originally Posted by Endorphin

Nothing to say but don't touch um......i wont go into detail about whyyou shouldnt because theres a thread about it where u clicked this one!

I just woke up in the bathroom wit a butane can and a scalpel in hand. But the weird thing is that scalpel was hidden very very securely..i dont remember going thru the hassle of getting it o.o anyway..

Thats all folks near death experience brang me to post. yall almost lost me like that *snaps finger* Oh well maybe next time..

I have two uncles who tried to kill themselves. After one of them shot themselves, he changed his mind and he called me and my cousins, luckily for him we were smart enough to call an ambulence and get him the help he needed. My other uncle was not so lucky. I do honestly believe he to probably would have changed his mind too after he pulled the trigger if he had been given the choice.
You keep getting chance after chance after chance. I got a few myself and Then... I learned..

One of these days you are not going to get another chance. Once you are dead B, you are dead. It is NOT pretty, it not glamorous, you are not a hero.
You leave a hole in people that they cannot fill up with anything, you leave people here hurting, wondering what they could have done, if they could have done more.
Trust me I DO get it, I understand wanting to die more than anyone could, I understand that pain when it feels like there is no other way, or that no one could possibly care or that you don't make a difference.
But you just have to believe that you do.
Get out of your head, and go make a difference. Go help someone else and stop thinking about you and the pain you are in. Go do something to help yourself instead of trying to numb your pain, stop doing drugs to make things better, stop cutting yourself to make the pain stop.
Go volunteer somewhere. Get out and live your life and stop hiding in your own reality.
Your reality is only your perception, and you can change your perception any given day.

If I could I would make you do the right thing, but since I can't.
JUST DO IT..
Do just one thing a day, to better yourself, and stop doing one bad thing a day to hurt yourself.

I promise you B...... If you do that, one day you will wake up and say
Holy **** my life is almost PERFECT!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU LITTLE BRO..

and still not giving up on you......

[Endorphin]

your right as always miss done.
ty for never givin up on meh even though all this time here lots changed in me maybe oneday the rest of me will convert to.

[Done-With-It!]

Originally Posted by Endorphin

your right as always miss done.
ty for never givin up on meh even though all this time here lots changed in me maybe oneday the rest of me will convert to.

Not usually right, but.... lol.... But I am right about you will
get it one day. Just don't give up on yourself.
It took me a lot of years to get it, and a lot of people not
giving up on me. You have grown a lot since you first
got here, just keep trying.
You know where to find me if you need anything.
So besides school what else are you going to do to
get in a better place.. : P

XD

[Chy]

I just hoped you learned something from it again B.. I'm so very glad to see you when you show up as I worry some day you won't and we'll never know. I want it for you so bad, I really do. Maybe one day it won't be so scary for you, but I'm believing in you, for that someday friend.

[Endorphin]

gotta be quick so,

i dunno havent realyl done much else to go help my self cause im just to busy or lazy mostly busy though.. im always out and about. gotta go!

[annihilate_me]

E,

I haven't much to say, but please be safe.

[icthus77]

*bangs head against the wall* Oh dear where have I been????? Why have I missed so much grrrrrrr. Let me first say that reading this post from you Endorphin makes me have much more compassion for you and I don't mean that in a way of pity. I simply mean that like DWI I am not a giver uper lol. I woould rather walk through fire. step on glass and let a tornado fly me around before giving up. Now I believe if you know you have people who are not willing to give up on you then you see that there is something there... that means you should realize you have worth.. don't give up on yourself and don't give up on life. Let me tell you this that no matter how hard life is.. it is always worth living. You can laugh and smile and run and walk and dream and be......don't throw it all away. I am not going to lecture because thats annoying and I am not going to claim to know everything and not going to claim to have been through it all because I have not I am only 21 but let me say this. there is a lot more out there then what you think. I don't have all of the answers but none of us do. Now hang in there and keep us posted I WILL be checking up on you now that you are on my *not giving up on you list* lol jk but seriously stay strong you CAN do it. *hugs* talk to ya soon

[Done-With-It!]

*What she said* lol, Yea Check In!