to drink or not to drink

[recoveringcutter]

so a lot of you know the drama and stress me and my fiancee have been going through. well.... as you can tell things may be getting worse. a friend of ours and someone else at work was going to a place to pick up some alcohol (yes he is legale age). stephy was seeing if he would pick her up something (shes 19) and he sai yes he would.

I KNOW I KNOW I SHOULD OF TALKED HER OUT OF IT. I KNOW IM STUPID.

but she aske them to get something thats not to strong. they edn up getting her something called captin morgan something. when we got home it was late and we mixed some of it in with pepsi.. at this point i knew what i was doing and how stupid it was. but after a while i was calim for some reason. once went to bed, she told me the next day that she toke a few sips out of the bottle and how it tasted like cough medicine and how it bruned her throat.. (she's living in our camper now and has her own fridge)

well.... last night (wednseday) i snaged a bottel of mikes hard lemonaid from my parents fridge and hid it in my fridge. the next day i ahd off so i decided to have some of it mixed with siara mist and was starting to feeling tired in like a half our. i was temped to have more tonight but remember that i work 2-close and me and steph are doing something in the morning..

*sigh* where the f*** is my life heading to?

[BM <3]

Drinking alcohol because you're stressed and involved in drama is going to do nothing. It won't solve your problems and it won't make any thing easier. It's the stupidest way to escape reality.
If you don't like where your life is heading, do something about it. Simple as that.
Either change your life or lower your expectations.

[Done-With-It!]

She pretty much nailed it.

In all my years alive I've never
seen drinking fix a problem.

If you are "drinking" to fix or solve a
problem your writing a prescription
for more problems, it's simple as that.



Oh, and Captain Morgan isn't known
as "Not Strong", just thought you may
want to know.

Alcohol is also a depressant, so don't
be surprised when you start getting more
depressed, that is what you are
putting into your body depressants.

*sigh* where the f*** is my life heading to?

Where ever you choose to take it.

[Chy]

Trust me Jon, it's not somewhere you want to go... it only brings you more misery.

[recoveringcutter]

i know. :( i had some of it last niht for no reason and mixed it with some pop but i could still taste it :(. i woke up today feelin fine and didn't feel anything. but around 7:00 or 8:00 at work i was feelin a little tired. i'm trying to stop as hard as i can now beofre i see it etting out of hand