Raw Feelings

[PurplePeach]

So,I cut today,yeah.....anyway,I decided to try to do something productive with it.Might as well? So,I grabbed a pen and paper right after, and just wrote. The words and feelings were raw,so I thought it might relate to some other people here. Maybe let you know,someone's feeling as deep emotions about this as you are. The writing itself isn't all that great,it's just raw......

I deserve to scar.
Don't you think I deserve to feel?
I know how to bleed.
Shouldn't I know what's inside?

Sometimes it just gets so worthless
and I just need to forget.
Sometime I just feel so meaningless
and I need to remember.

You don't deserve it
you don't deserve it
You don't deserve to let go.

Can't you feel it?
Can't you feel it?
Can't you feel it scarring low?

overpowering; overtaking me
bleed it out and maybe
I can just feel
justfeel it

Can't forget and can't remember
Can't live and can't die
I can't find it.
So I'll scratch it out.
until it reveals itself
then once and for all
I'll be free.

[Dreamz]

Thats good that you wrote it all down. Maybe you could try writing before you actually cut then maybe you can figure out what it is that ticks in your brain to make you want to do it!

Its so amazing to read peoples inner thoughts - like exactly howyour mind was working at that point. Thanks for sharing!

[Done-With-It!]

{{{{PurplePeach}}}}

Thank you for sharing what you are going through with us. I can relate to some of what you said. As hard and as bad as you are feeling, I do know that the only way to get past those feelings is to go through them. We are here for you sweetie.
Keep writing and keep talking.

You owe it to yourself, you are worth it. You really are and if you keep fighting you will find out what an amazing person you are and you will win this battle, I promise.
I've seen so many come out winning, as long as you keep fighting.

Big Hugs,


Sending you love and light!

[Kellie]

Honey your writing is great... it is painfully beautiful and painfully honest.


Thank you for sharing yourself with us... do you write other poetry?

You are a very good writer.....

[PurplePeach]

Thank you. And yes, there are more. I do write to releave my emotions. Right now, sometimes it isn't enough for what I'm feeling. And, Done-with-it I know I will win this too someday,it'll just be hard.

and Kellie, way to boost up my ego^^ I am a writer,in a way.hehe.

[Kellie]

Well don't hesitate to post some of your writings... (hint,hint...)

[purrdy]

Use your creativity to help you..,...YOu have a gift....keep writing its therapeutic...

love n hugs

purrdyxx

[icthus77]

WOW anyone who can right such deep emotions and show the world whats inside has the most beautiful soul u can imagine. u r special and so very beautiful. these writings r just the beginning for u and always know that u can conquer all. uve got us on your side and god and with all that support u can do it. know that even though u cut this time before u wrote it doesnt make u any less of a person or any less special. i am here if u need to talk and i know u can do it i have faith in u. keep holding on sweety and never let go.