Impulse Control Log

[NoOneCanHearYou]

IMPULSE CONTROL LOG


1.SELF-INJURY THOUGHTS:
Cutting (deep cuts)
Burning (throwing myself into a fire)
Car crashing



2.TIME AND DATE:

Aug. 30, 09 1:13 A.M.

3.LOCATION:

My bedroom

4.SITUATION:

My fiance is spending the night at a church in Paducah. He didn't tell me where he was going, so I thought I was going to see him on Sunday. It doesn't help the fact his ex girlfriend is with him. So I feel lied to and cheated out of the only time I would get to spend with him.


5.FEELING:
Angry
Lied to
Cheated
Alone
Hopeless
Worthless
Not good enough


6.WHAT WOULD BE THE RESULT OF SELF-INJURY?
Alot of release and satisfaction because I can't seem to take it out on anything else.


7. WHAT WOULD I BE TRYING TO COMMUNICATE WITH MY SELF-INJURY?
I need help controlling myself.
I'm turning into a monster I hate.



8.ACTION TAKEN:
I'm planning on watching something funny to take my mind off feeling like this.







THis is a bad urge guys. I feel so hurt by what he did.



9.COMMENTS:

[2jules7]

I dont know how to say this. Watching something funny is a good idea, writing this and letting us know how you are is good as well, something to help you. Do something you enjoy doing. Maybe even try sleeping, if you can? Its pretty late and sleep seems to be a nice helper sometimes. You can take it out on me. I gave up on the relationship thing so ive got emotions to spare. But taking it out on yourself in a way such as what you have listed above will only help for so long. Dont fool yourself into thinking you are hopeless, or worthless, or not good enough, because you arent. Youre so much more then youre giving yourself credit for. Its okay to be upset that he didnt tell you, especially because you thought you were going to see him, but dont let that bring you into something youll regret later on. Give it a little time to calm down and see if you two can figure something out in case something like this ever happens again. Dont give into those urges, you know its not worth it. *hugs!*

[Done-With-It!]

So what happened with the hospital and all that?

[annihilate_me]

Good job posting.

I'm sorry I haven't more to say.

Big Hugs, stay strong.

[Chy]

I hoped you worked through this. No man is worth hurting yourself over never ever... hope you've been able to get the help you wanted, let us know how that went to!

[NoOneCanHearYou]

Well, he came back, I gave him my ring and said if he doesn't want to start respecting me more I won't be a part of it. He said he'd try, so I dunno what path we are going on, I have to work on my anger with him, and he's got to learn how to respect me enough not to be around his ex (who always ends up being the root of our problems.). She's screwed our relationship up so bad.

[NoOneCanHearYou]

I take that back. She didn't mess it up. I did. He told me today he doesn't know who's more important to him, me or her. He wouldn't feel that way if I didn't screw things up.