Jon's story

[recoveringcutter]

you guys really love my stories don't you? ok here is another story... if you know where this story is going and you know who its about keep it to yourself..

i present Jon's story

Jon was like anyother teen. He loved sleeping in on the weekened, staying up late, listening to music, and other things. There's a bit of a sad story of Jon. Before Jon was born he almost died. He breathed to soon while he was still inside of his mom and got some liquid substance in his mouth. He spent about a week in an enqubater.
When Jon was in high school he made great friends and he made enimies that he will have for a long time. You see, Jon wasn't as smart as the other kids. He had a Learning Disabilty which he had through out high school. He had a problem learning things not as fast as other students did. He was teased about this for a long time and he thought it will blow over. He was wrong.
Jon didn't live in a wealthy family. He lived in a family that made money that got them through life. Jon was into drawing and secthing. No one bothered to see the real Jon that was inside of him. They just judge by the way he looked. When Jon was ever just drawing or bothering no one, some kids walked up to him asked, Jon, are you L.D.? He didn't pay much to it and just let it go. He did get made fun of by some kids at school. They will say things like, Get lost you L.D. loser, No one likes someone thats L.D.
Sometimes the teasing got to Jon. He thought what should he do about this. He just let it go and hoped it will get better.

But i'm getting a head of myself here.. Lets go back a few years

Once Jon was in the 8th grade his apperance started to change. He started to wear black clothes, listen to different music, and other things. No one seem to care much about it anyway.
Since Jon had a learning disabilty he had to be in a defferent english and math class. In his english class his teacher want them to write for about 10-15 minutes about anything. She said, if you don't want me to read it, just write don't read at the top and I won't read it. Jon for got all about that. He worte about hating his life, how his family is always fighting, and other things.
His teacher read what he worte about and took it to the conselor's. One day while Jon was wearing all black in school the conserlor called the class and wanted to talk to him. Jon walked down to the conserlor's not worried about anything. He walked in and the conserlor had told him that one of his teachers has notice changed in him and she is worried. Jon said, it's nothing major and he told the conserlor other things. The conserlor let im go after talking about 15 minutes.
Weeks went by and again Jon was wearing the same clothes and the conselor called him in again. The conselor told Jon that some of his teachers have notcie changed in him and he has not been himself for the past weeks. Jon told the conserlor that he has been having family problems at home. Like fighting. The conserlor told Jon that most families do that. Jon wanted to tell the conserlor what he was really feeling, but he couldn't
Since Jon had a learning disabilty he was on a IEP. Which means they keep track of the kids that are leaning disable to make sure they graduate from high school. Jon decided to go to it anyway, since it gave him something to do. The teacher he worte for 10-15 minutes read a little thing about Jon. At one point Jon wanted to leave after she read, Jon has writin about hating his life and other things. She said she took it to the conserlors becasue she was worrided about him.
Once Jon and his mom got into the car his mom asked him if anything was wrong. Jon said no. His mom said ok. Jon looked out the window and whispered everything. What Jon's mom didn't know that Jon was really in pain. He just didn't want her to know

To Be Continued....

[recoveringcutter]

part 2

It was about 11:30 at night. About at this point Jon is asleep and in bed. But not at this point. Jon went through a day of hell today. he was in bed listening to the same song Behind Blue eyes by Limp Bizkit. He was crying as he turned his head to the right and saw a reflection of what he thought he didn't see. He saw a knife sitting on his shelve. He sat up and picked it up and looked at his reflection in it. He looked at his right uper arm an ran the knife up and down it it. He made the first cut that would ruin his life.
Jon woke the next day and looked at his right sholder. Ten scars were on his right sholder. They weren't deep, just bad enough that if you pick at them they will bleed. Jon kept cutting for about two or three months. He was afraid to tell his mom about this, so he just told his best friend online. She was mad him for self-harming. When ever Jon would cut he would tell her and she will be mad but she would be there to cheer him up.
Jon was entering his freshmen year in high school and he thought it was going to be easy, he was wrong. Students were casuing him more hell then in jr. high. The more he was teased, the more he cut.
It was still early in the school year and Jon had to go to the school office for something. When he walked in there were the princelpal, two girls and himself. One of the girls said hi and introduce herself. What Jon didn't know is that she will be one of his great friends for the rest of his life.
Jon meet up with her again and they sat and talked until the first bell rang. Jon finally had the guts to tell her what he has been doing to himself. She was shocked and felt bad. What Jon was surprized was that she didn't tell no one. Not even the school conserlor.
Days turn into weeks, weeks to into months, and months turned into years. Jon's disorder is getting worse. His right sholder is covered in scars. Jon thought what he was doing was ok and wouldn't casue no harm to himselfe. What Jon didn't know was that his depression and disorder would be getting worse

To Be Continude....

[recoveringcutter]

part 3

It's been about a year and a half and Jon is still cutting. He still cuts on his right sholder but he has started to cut on his left sholder. Half of the time he felt guilty after what he did, and sometimes he felt like a lot of pressuer has been left off of his sholders.
Jon still talked to the girl that he meet in high school. They have become some what of great friends. Jon finally wanted to know her name. Her name is Marilyn. When ever Jon would cut he will tell her and sometime show her the scars. One point Jon kept a sprial notebook that said keep out on the cover. Inside he worte poems, drew pics of depression, and some times when ever he cut he will press the notebook against his skin and the blood will be on the paper. After he did that, he would date it.
The years seemed to go by fast, Its been 3 years and Jon is still cutting himself. He is starting to run out of room on his sholders. He has now tunred to cutting his legs. When he made the first cut on his leg, he cried, but he kept cutting. Not caring about the blood coming out. Jon finally knew that this is getting out of hand. And so does his best friend Marilyn. Jon is at the point were he wants to tell someone about his disorder. But he is afraid of being judge and being called emo.
December can around fast. Jon is sitting in the cafitera wearing a blue and red long sleve shirt and black jeans. He's sitting by his friends, but he's in no mood to talk. He just sat there with his head and arms on the table. A few people looked at him but didn't seemed to bother to ask whats wrong. A girl said hi to him and he said hi back but in a sad way. She looked him for a second then walked away. Jon went home and made the call that may save his live.


To Be Continued....

[recoveringcutter]

part 4 the final chapter

Jon was thinking about what he should do about his disorder. When he got home he looked at the teen-hotline card that the school gives the students. He looked at for a while then made the call to someone who he dosen't know that my save his life.
Hello? A women said over the other line. Hello? She said again. Jon finally got the curage to talk. Jon told her what he has been through and about his cutting. She asked Jon where was the last place he cut. He said his leg. She asked Jon if he had any thought of telling his mom. He said he really wasn't comfrotable with talking to his mom face to face. Jon said he sometimes will write a letter to his mom. The women over the other line said, "ok write the letter then call us back." If you don't, we will call you back. At this point Jon said, "ok thereis no turning back."
Jon didn't write the letter. Instead he talk to his mom face to face. When his mom got home from work she was in a good mood which is good. Jon asked his mom if he can talk to her. She said yeah. He sat down where his mom was at. He said, "Mom, i'm sorry that I have been keeping this from you for three years." Her eyes have never left his face. "I have been cutting myself because i was stressed and sick of the pain i have been through. She asked to see his scars and he showed her. She looked at them then ran her hand across them.
She made him promised him to not to do it again. She said ok and promised. She said you do know I have to tell youre dad. Jon said yeah.
Jon called the teen-hotline and told them what happened. He told them that he told his mom face to face instead of writing the letter. They were really proud of him. Jon went to school the next day and told his friend Marilyn and she was pround of him to and she gave him a big hug. Jon also told his friend online and she also proud of him too.

Jon didn't go to conserloring, family doctor, therapy, or put on any medications. He had to get over his disorder himself.
Years went by two years and six months to be exact. Jon is whole new person. He no longer has the thougth to self-harm. He knew what he did was a bad idea. He didn't ever want to go down that path of pain again. He now draws anything that comes to his mind.
Jon was able to help out three teens get over the urge to cut. But Jon wanted to do more then that. He already had a myspcae profile for his friends. So he deicded to make profile to help other teens that self-harm. So he decided to call this myspace,

Recovered Cutter
THE END

[recoveringcutter]

what.. no one liked it??? i'm hurt... lol just kidding

[icthus77]

wow ok where do I begin. first let me say i am sooooooo proud of u for writing this story. it took a giant step of faith to do so. i enjoyed it b/c i felt like i really knew the character and that was great lol. anyway hun that was awesome keep up the good work and plz keep writing. i enjoy reading them. take care fo urself and god bless. ill be praying for u today for ur first session. u can do it i know u can. *hugs*

[heather]

Wow, that is an amazing story. I mean that when I say it. I can really relate to it, it gives me hope. Thank you. I really enjoyed it.