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[Endorphin]

Why do i feel like this? how come the only thing i believe will make me feel better is to die?


Meth doesn't help, heroin doesn't help, cocaine doesn't help, weed doesn't help, ectasy doesn't help, they are all worthless. none help me at all. and then theres cutting all it does is ease the pain but never has it stopped it.

tonight is just another night i fight against my self to not end my life. and i hate it because it hurts me inside enough to make me cry.

[Endorphin]

Just giving up seems so much easier..im so tired of fighting i just want it all to go away.

[purrdy]

Hi Endorphin....im so sorry that you are feeling like this....

I have felt EXACTLY the same in the past. I have problems with depression and always have done since i can remember. I took an overdose in my teens, I too had tried most drugs to get away from me!!!


my last drug of choice was alcohol which nearly stripped me of everything i held dear.....


DEPRESSION is a killer.....it motivated me to try and harm ME..i hated ME but in the same chalk i HATED the feelings i was expereinceng...i just did not know what to do..

Have you been to see a doctor?..i would strongly urge you to seek some medical advice and get some anti depressants to help lift your mood....

my last bout of depression was the worst....i needed help i sought it and with the help of family and freinds i was able to pull myself out of the abyss..it took a long time

let me know how you are doing, ill be watching out for you

love purrdsxxxxxxxxxxx

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Hey you~~

Well the drugs you do sure don't help, they end up just making you feel worse in the end.
What happened to your mom getting you some help????

What's going on tonight that's got you so down? You know suicide isn't the answer, it's just a temporary solution...
There is help out there and there are things that can help you to feel better, but drugs aren't the answer...
You seemed so happy and relieved to be getting help, what happened with all that?
If your mom dropped the ball, call her on it, make her follow through on it..

[*silenced*]

I don't know you well, but I can see you're a clever person.
You're so right, drugs and cutting don't work.
And believe me neither does suicide. I've tryed and failed and I thank the people who saved me everyday because although I wanted to die SO much then, I didn't die and I'm so glad of that now.
A time will come when you look back on this and be so thankful that you didn't kill yourself.
Please be strong and talk to someone. You can get through this, but you should'nt have to do it alone.
Don't give up hope. I know how you are feeling, but this isn't the end.

[Endorphin]

ugh i feel sick god i been laying down in a swirl of sadness since like 10pm its already *looks at clock* O_o; 5:05am..ima go take some sleeping pills and get to bed. ill post somethin when i wake up.

[Chy]

Tell your mom you need help now! It's the drugs my friend, nothing wrong with you but what they have done to the chemicals in your brain, keep telling yoursef this and demand mom get you some help. If you want help now, walk to the nearest hospital and tell them what you told us, they'll get you the help you need right away get you detoxed and on the right path. Please go okay? Or tell your mom to take you.

[Velvet]

Definately the drugs. When you're coming off of them you feel this way, you need more, you need something. That's where the old 70's term...."why do you think they call it dope?" comes from. Don't be fooled that the drugs will make you feel better. The depression is only temporary. Go to a meeting, even if you don't want to go. Talk to someone there, they'll help you. You're a bright kid with lots to offer....don't take the coward way out.....you are worth more than that. Get on the phone, call a hotline. We care about you. If your mom won't or doesn't take you seriously go to the ER, like Chy suggested. Please.

[Kellie]

You know what you need to do my friend...
It comes down to you being willing to let go of this crazy lifestyle you are living and getting clean.
You will not feel better overnight, it will take time for your body to adjust from the onslaught of drugs you have been feeding it.
I can promise you that the alternative is going to feel better... but you are going to have to work at it, put some real effort into it.

You are so worth it!

And I know you can do it!

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Bakersfield Adult Services - Crisis Services M. K. Shell Bldg. 2151 College Ave Bakersfield, CA 93305 Phone: (661) 868-8080 View map Type of Organization: Outpatient Clinic Service Setting: Outpatient Care

Bakersfield CBOC VA Greater Los Angeles Healthcare 1801 Westwind Dr Bakersfield, CA 93301 Phone: (661) 632-1800 View map Type of Organization: General Hosp W Sep Psych Unit Service Setting: Outpatient Care

Belle Terrace 1600 Belle Terrace Bakersfield, CA 93307 Phone: (661) 868-4000 View map Type of Organization: Outpatient Clinic Service Setting: Outpatient Care

Children's Outpatient 2621 Oswell St Bakersfield, CA 93305 Phone: (661) 868-6750 View map Type of Organization: Outpatient Clinic Service Setting: Outpatient Care

Good Samaritan Hospital Attn: Behavioral Health 901 Olive Dr Bakersfield, CA 93308-4144 Phone: (661) 399-4461 View map Type of Organization: General Hosp W Sep Psych Unit Service Setting: Inpatient and Outpatient Care

Green Gardens 2300 S Union Bakersfield, CA 93307 Phone: (661) 827-8412 View map Type of Organization: Outpatient Clinic Service Setting: Outpatient Care

Henrietta Weill Memorial Child Guidance Clinic, Inc. 3628 Stockdale Hwy Bakersfield, CA 93309-2153 Phone: (661) 322-1021 View map Type of Organization: Outpatient Clinic Service Setting: Outpatient Care

Henrietta Weill Memorial Child Guidance Clinic 2001 N Chester Bakersfield, CA 93308 Phone: (661) 393-5836 View map Type of Organization: Outpatient Clinic Service Setting: Outpatient Care

Henrietta Weill Memorial Child Guidance Clinic 2005 Ridge Rd Bakersfield, CA 93305-4123 Phone: (661) 868-4460 View map Type of Organization: Outpatient Clinic Service Setting: Outpatient Care

Kern County Mental Health Services Administrative Office 3300 Truxtun Ave Bakersfield, CA 93301-3137 Phone: (661) 868-6600 View map Type of Organization: Outpatient Clinic Service Setting: Outpatient Care

Kern County Mental Health Services Adult Outpatient Services-Rehab 3 3715 Columbus Ave Bakersfield, CA 93306-2719 Phone: (661) 868-7150 View map Type of Organization: Outpatient Clinic Service Setting: Outpatient Care

Kern Linkage 2525 N Chester Bakersfield, CA 93308 Phone: (661) 868-1840 View map Type of Organization: Outpatient Clinic Service Setting: Outpatient Care

Kern Medical Center 1830 Flower St Bakersfield, CA 93305-4186 Phone: (661) 326-2000 View map Type of Organization: General Hosp W Sep Psych Unit Service Setting: Inpatient Care

Lerdo Facility 17635 Industrial Farm Rd Bakersfield, CA 93308 Phone: (661) 391-7948 View map Type of Organization: Outpatient Clinic Service Setting: Outpatient Care

Memorial Center for Behavioral Health 5201 White Ln Bakersfield, CA 93309-6200 Phone: (661) 398-1800 View map Type of Organization: Private Psychiatric Hospital Service Setting: Inpatient and Outpatient Care

Mental Health Court 1401 L St Bakersfield, CA 93301 Phone: (661) 868-6100 View map Type of Organization: Outpatient Clinic Service Setting: Outpatient Care

North Chester Center - Adult Outpatient 2525 N Chester Ave Bakersfield, CA 93308 Phone: (661) 868-1800 View map Type of Organization: Outpatient Clinic Service Setting: Outpatient Care

Sagebrush Center Adult Services 1111 Columbus Bakersfield, CA 93301 Phone: (661) 868-8200 View map Type of Organization: Outpatient Clinic Service Setting: Outpatient Care

Sagebrush Center - Children's 1111 Columbus St Bakersfield, CA 93305-1921 Phone: (661) 868-8300 View map Type of Organization: Outpatient Clinic Service Setting: Outpatient Care

Westwind Drive Mental Health Center 1721 Westwind Dr Bakersfield, CA 93301 Phone: (661) 868-8381 View map Type of Organization: Outpatient Clinic Service Setting: Outpatient Care

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Your search has found 27 facilities within 20 miles of your starting point. The map shows the location of the 10 closest. For information about each one, scroll down below the map.

Ebony Counseling Center	1301-1309 California Avenue Bakersfield, CA 93304	(661) 324-4756	0.15 miles	Map It!
Primary Focus: Mix of mental health and substance abuse services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment Type of Care: Outpatient Special Programs/Groups: Adolescents, Pregnant/postpartum women, Women, Criminal justice clients Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment, Private health insurance Payment Assistance: Sliding fee scale (fee is based on income and other factors) Special Language Services: ASL or other assistance for hearing impaired, Spanish Hotlines: (661) 336-5200 (661) 324-3044
2	Kern County Mental Hlth System Substance Abuse Resource Team	1401 L Street Bakersfield, CA 93301	(661) 868-6100	0.29 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment Type of Care: Outpatient Special Programs/Groups: Adolescents, Persons with co-occurring mental and substance abuse disorders, Pregnant/postpartum women, Women Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment, Medicaid Payment Assistance: Payment assistance (Check with facility for details) Special Language Services: ASL or other assistance for hearing impaired Website: http://www.co.kern.ca.us/kcmh
3	New Advances for People with Disabilities (NAPD)/Genesis Program	1909 16th Street Bakersfield, CA 93301	(661) 325-3003	0.46 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment Type of Care: Outpatient Special Programs/Groups: Persons with co-occurring mental and substance abuse disorders, Criminal justice clients Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment Intake: (877) 325-3003
4	Joseph C Jones Jr Alternative Solutions Edu Clinicians	1415 18th Street Bakersfield, CA 93301	(661) 325-2732	0.57 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Mix of mental health and substance abuse services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment, Detoxification Type of Care: Outpatient, Partial hospitalization/day treatment Special Programs/Groups: Adolescents, Persons with co-occurring mental and substance abuse disorders, Women, Men, Criminal justice clients Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment, Medicaid, Medicare Special Language Services: Spanish Intake: (661) 325ASEC
5	Kern County Hispanic Commission on Alcohol and Drug Abuse Casa de Alma	2024 20th Street Bakersfield, CA 93301	(661) 864-1698	0.80 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment Type of Care: Residential long-term treatment (more than 30 days) Special Programs/Groups: Persons with co-occurring mental and substance abuse disorders, Persons with HIV/AIDS, Gays and Lesbians, Pregnant/postpartum women, Women, Criminal justice clients Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment Payment Assistance: Sliding fee scale (fee is based on income and other factors) Special Language Services: Spanish Intake: (661) 634-9877
6	Kern Co Hispanic Comm on Alcohol/Drug Serenity House/Casa Alma	2024 20th Street Bakersfield, CA 93301	(661) 634-9737	0.80 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment, Detoxification Type of Care: Residential short-term treatment (30 days or less), Residential long-term treatment (more than 30 days), Outpatient Special Programs/Groups: Women, Criminal justice clients Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment Special Language Services: Spanish
7	Tabitha House Inc Outpatient Services	700 19th Street Bakersfield, CA 93301	(661) 637-1165	0.82 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment Type of Care: Outpatient Special Programs/Groups: Persons with HIV/AIDS, Women Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment, Medicaid, Medicare
8	Aegis Medical Systems Inc	1018 21st Street Bakersfield, CA 93301	(661) 861-9967	0.83 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment, Detoxification, Methadone Maintenance, Methadone Detoxification Type of Care: Outpatient Special Programs/Groups: Pregnant/postpartum women Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment, Medicaid, Medicare, Private health insurance, Military insurance (e.g., VA,TRICARE) Special Language Services: ASL or other assistance for hearing impaired, Spanish Exclusive Services: Methadone Clients Only Website: http://www.aegismed.com
9	Legacy Behavioral Services Residential Treatment Program	2105 F Street Bakersfield, CA 93301	(661) 861-1155	0.83 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment, Halfway house Type of Care: Residential long-term treatment (more than 30 days) Special Programs/Groups: Men Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment Intake: (661) 861-1133 Website: http://www.legacybehavioralservices.com
10	Turning Point of Central CA Inc Ken Kennemer Center Outpatient	1120 Union Avenue Bakersfield, CA 93307	(661) 861-6141	0.91 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment Type of Care: Outpatient Special Programs/Groups: Women, Men Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment, Medicaid Payment Assistance: Sliding fee scale (fee is based on income and other factors), Payment assistance (Check with facility for details) Special Language Services: Spanish

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Turning Point of Central CA Inc Ken Kennemer Treatment Center	1100 Union Avenue Bakersfield, CA 93307	(661) 861-6111	0.91 miles	Map It!
Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment, Detoxification Type of Care: Residential short-term treatment (30 days or less), Residential long-term treatment (more than 30 days), Outpatient Special Programs/Groups: Persons with co-occurring mental and substance abuse disorders, Criminal justice clients Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment Special Language Services: Spanish Intake: (661) 861-6111x10
12	Seven Fold Inc Kern Family Living Center	16 4th Street Bakersfield, CA 93304	(661) 472-4431	1.04 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment Type of Care: Outpatient, Partial hospitalization/day treatment Special Programs/Groups: Adolescents, Gays and Lesbians, Pregnant/postpartum women, Criminal justice clients Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment, Medicaid Payment Assistance: Sliding fee scale (fee is based on income and other factors), Payment assistance (Check with facility for details) Special Language Services: Spanish Website: http://www.sevenfoldinc.com
13	Salvation Army Adult Rehabilitation Center	200 19th Street Bakersfield, CA 93301	(661) 325-8626	1.04 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment Type of Care: Residential long-term treatment (more than 30 days) Special Programs/Groups: Men Payment Assistance: Payment assistance (Check with facility for details) Website: http://www.bakersfield.org/salarmy
14	Chumash Council of Bakersfield American Indian Health Project	1617 30th Street Bakersfield, CA 93301	(661) 327-4030x211	1.36 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: General health services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment Type of Care: Outpatient Special Programs/Groups: Adolescents Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment Payment Assistance: Payment assistance (Check with facility for details) Special Language Services: Spanish Intake: (661) 327-4030x207 Website: http://www.aihpb.com
15	Restoration Village Treatment Center	1670 Golden State Avenue Bakersfield, CA 93301	(661) 336-0838	1.58 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment Type of Care: Residential long-term treatment (more than 30 days), Outpatient Special Programs/Groups: Residential beds for clients' children, Men Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment, Medicare, Private health insurance
16	Community Service Organization (CSO) Behavioral Health Programs Brotherhood	816 Baker Street Bakersfield, CA 93305	(661) 327-9376	1.61 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment Type of Care: Outpatient Special Programs/Groups: Seniors/older adults, Women, Men, Criminal justice clients Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment, Medicare Special Language Services: Spanish
17	Bakersfield Medical and Mental Servs	1010 1/2 South Union Avenue Bakersfield, CA 93307	(661) 321-0234	1.84 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Mix of mental health and substance abuse services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment, Detoxification, Methadone Maintenance, Methadone Detoxification, Buprenorphine Services Type of Care: Outpatient Special Programs/Groups: Pregnant/postpartum women Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment, Medicaid Special Language Services: ASL or other assistance for hearing impaired, Spanish Exclusive Services: Methadone and Buprenorphine Clients Only Website: http://www.ahsadm.com
18	Citizens for the Betterment of Community and Country/Capistrano Women	3316 Laverne Street Bakersfield, CA 93309	(661) 832-8504	2.07 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment, Detoxification Type of Care: Residential short-term treatment (30 days or less), Residential long-term treatment (more than 30 days) Special Programs/Groups: Women, Residential beds for clients' children, Criminal justice clients Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment, Private health insurance Payment Assistance: Sliding fee scale (fee is based on income and other factors) Intake: (661) 832-8504x10 Website: http://www.jasonsretreat.com
19	Aegis Medical Systems Inc Columbus	501 West Columbus Avenue Bakersfield, CA 93301	(661) 328-0245	2.20 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment Type of Care: Outpatient Special Programs/Groups: Persons with co-occurring mental and substance abuse disorders Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment, Medicaid Payment Assistance: Sliding fee scale (fee is based on income and other factors), Payment assistance (Check with facility for details) Special Language Services: Spanish Website: http://www.aegismed.com
20	Citizens for the Betterment of Community and Country	Capistrano Lincoln Street Retreat Bakersfield, CA 93305	(661) 869-1795	2.61 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment, Detoxification Type of Care: Residential short-term treatment (30 days or less), Residential long-term treatment (more than 30 days) Special Programs/Groups: Persons with co-occurring mental and substance abuse disorders, Persons with HIV/AIDS, Gays and Lesbians, Seniors/older adults, Pregnant/postpartum women, Women, Residential beds for clients' children, Criminal justice clients Forms of Payment Accepted: Medicaid Website: http://www.jasonsretreat.com

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Westcare California Inc	2901-2913 South H Street Bakersfield, CA 93304	(661) 398-4303	2.65 miles	Map It!
Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment Type of Care: Residential short-term treatment (30 days or less), Residential long-term treatment (more than 30 days) Special Programs/Groups: Men, Criminal justice clients Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment Special Language Services: Spanish Website: http://www.westcare.com
22	Special Treatment Education and Prevention Services (STEPS)	3533 Mount Vernon Avenue Bakersfield, CA 93306	(661) 871-3353	3.94 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment Type of Care: Outpatient Special Programs/Groups: Adolescents, DUI/DWI offenders Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment Special Language Services: Spanish Exclusive Services: DWI/DUI Clients Only
23	Memorial Center for Behavioral Health	5201 White Lane Bakersfield, CA 93309	(661) 398-1800x204	4.13 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Mix of mental health and substance abuse services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment, Detoxification Type of Care: Hospital inpatient, Outpatient, Partial hospitalization/day treatment Special Programs/Groups: Adolescents, Persons with co-occurring mental and substance abuse disorders Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment, Medicaid, Medicare, State financed insurance (other than Medicaid), Private health insurance, Military insurance (e.g., VA,TRICARE), Access to Recovery Special Language Services: ASL or other assistance for hearing impaired, Spanish
24	United in Christ Ministries Hadassah House Treatment Facility	6113 Tobias Way Bakersfield, CA 93313	(661) 319-7977	5.12 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment Type of Care: Residential long-term treatment (more than 30 days) Special Programs/Groups: Pregnant/postpartum women, Women, Residential beds for clients' children Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment, Medicare, State financed insurance (other than Medicaid), Private health insurance, Military insurance (e.g., VA,TRICARE), Access to Recovery Payment Assistance: Sliding fee scale (fee is based on income and other factors), Payment assistance (Check with facility for details)
25	Special Treatment Education and Prevention Services Inc (STEPS)	10822 Rosedale Highway Bakersfield, CA 93312	(661) 587-8817	5.95 miles	Map It!
	Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment Type of Care: Outpatient Special Programs/Groups: Gays and Lesbians, DUI/DWI offenders Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment Exclusive Services: DWI/DUI Clients Only Intake: (661) 871-3353
26	Willows Recovery Center	407 Helen Way Bakersfield, CA 93307	(661) 832-3098	6.67 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment Type of Care: Residential short-term treatment (30 days or less), Residential long-term treatment (more than 30 days), Outpatient Special Programs/Groups: Men Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment, Private health insurance
27	Community Service Organization (CSO) Behavioral Hlth Prog De Colores Center	8000 Segrue Street Lamont, CA 93241	(661) 327-9376	9.65 miles	Map It!
	Primary Focus: Substance abuse treatment services Services Provided: Substance abuse treatment Type of Care: Outpatient Special Programs/Groups: Persons with co-occurring mental and substance abuse disorders, Men Forms of Payment Accepted: Self payment, Medicare Special Language Services: ASL or other assistance for hearing impaired, Spanish Intake: (661) 845-3753

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Print these out and give them to your Mom...

How are you this morning?

[Endorphin]

I feel the same as i did when i went to bed. ****

weird it seemed like you knew id wake at this time.. >.>

[Endorphin]

Oh and yeah. thanks for that list i never knew half of those places. can't print them..cause i shot my printer lol but ill just show my mom or write them down if anything.

[Kellie]

Good.... let us know how that goes....showing your mom.

Hugs
Kel

[purrdy]

Hey endorphin, i hope that you have managed to get up and about today...did you manage to seek some help..via mom?.....are you guys able to talk to eachother?.....do you have another freind that would be willing to be with you to see a doctor?....

the anquish and confusion you are expereiencing are a direct result of the drugs/lifestyle you have led.

You are a young and capapble person im sure so now its time to take some care of you!!!..

PLEASE let us know how you are.....thinkning of you

purrdyxxx

[Endorphin]

Originally Posted by purrdy

Hey endorphin, i hope that you have managed to get up and about today...did you manage to seek some help..via mom?.....are you guys able to talk to eachother?.....do you have another freind that would be willing to be with you to see a doctor?....

the anquish and confusion you are expereiencing are a direct result of the drugs/lifestyle you have led.

You are a young and capapble person im sure so now its time to take some care of you!!!..

PLEASE let us know how you are.....thinkning of you

purrdyxxx

Ima try to talk to her in like 30mins. i woke up to late to get at her this morning or w/e..im so f'd up right now anyway i dunno if i could even use words. >_>
i keep like wow..yeo ttyl

[Endorphin]

Originally Posted by Endorphin

Ima try to talk to her in like 30mins. i woke up to late to get at her this morning or w/e..im so f'd up right now anyway i dunno if i could even use words. >_>
i keep like wow..yeo ttyl

Wow my bad. i posted this high on pcp UNWILLINGLY high though >.> someone gave me a laced up blunt i smoked half of it. and i psoted this like 1hr later >.> took me all day to find that sob too. poor guy won't be rolling up blunts for the rest of his life...guess he's gonna ahve to use blunt rollers from now on