Anxiety

[tryingtotry]

I always used to (ok still do) often have this feeling, but I never realised what it was, until I described it and several independent people said it sounded just like anxiety attacks. But it seems pretty odd that I wouldn't even realised I was feeling afraid? I'm not afraid about anything, I'm not worried about anything. Its purely physical... so odd...

[historyteach]

Hi, ttt!
I had panic attacks many years ago. And it was so funny, (not haha funny, but weird), that, when I started having them, I recognized what they were, but, had no comprehension about WHY I was having them!
My son was totally escalating in his heroin addiction, and there was one crisis after another. My ex was escalating in his gambling addiction, and spending the morgage money on betting. We almost lost our house during this time as a result - and for the second time, no less!
Yet, here I was, superwoman, trying to keep it all under control. Trying to "fix" everyone else's problems. And most importantly, to keep it under wraps, so no one would know what was really going on in my life.
DUH!!!
Couldn't understand why I was having panic attacks???
Today, I look at that and wonder why I couldn't see what was right in front of me! It was so obvious, yet, at the time, I was blind to it. It took a visit to the doctor's to cause me to come out of the denial I had been living. To face the reality that my life was out of control.
I've read your other posts. It is your, (forgive me if I'm wrong here), one trillionth time quitting drugs I think you said?
Believe me, drugs can do all kinds of things to us physically. Have you detoxed? Fully? Panic attacks can be caused by the physical withdrawal from drugs and alcohol. Your body has to readjust, and is craving what is missing.
There is also the mental obsession of addiction. Those obsessive cravings can cause anxiety too.
And, in one of your posts, you spoke about becoming involved in politics. You said it was frightening becoming aware once more of the world around you and how messed up it is. Well, as I said on that thread, our political involvement can become overwhelming if we think we can change the world.
Especially if we are in the process of dealing with addiction recovery at the same time.
Perhaps you should talk to your doctor. Explain what's happening. Do you have a counselor available? If not, can you go to one? Be painfully honest when dealing with these professionals. They will NOT be shocked or surprised, I promise! lol! But, they have to know what's happening to help. Those are both good steps to begin your process of recovery.
Face to face AA or NA meetings would be very helpful to you also. You can get a sponsor; work the steps and really learn how to live your life sober and clean. Those meetings have been life savers for many people.
And of course, continue to come here and share your Experience, Strength and Hope as others do the same for you. It's how we grow.
Be good to yourself!
Shalom!

[CarChick4life]

What drugs have you done? A hell of a lot of those (crack, heroin, morphine) cause paranoia and anxiety. So that may be some of the things triggering the attacks that you're having. Or it could be the stress of dealing with trying to quit, or even the weird (for lack of better word) feeling you get when you go without drugs for a while or are worried that you can’t make it to the next day without getting high but don’t have the money for drugs. I know a lot of people who went through that.

You should talk to a doctor though. Panic attacks are bad I hear, they cause high blood pressure and such. When you feel like your getting one, tell yourself that things are going to be fine and that you are going to be fine and that nothing is wrong with you. And take deeps breaths and try to be alone if you can. I’ve found that helps. Good luck.

[tryingtotry]

I dunno, I had these anxiety attacks most of my adolescence. When I was younger I just figured I was going crazy (and yet... I never seemed to quite get there, I wished I would just go mad already because the tension of feeling on the verge of going mad was so impossibly... gah). The drugs I've been doing, mostly morphine, oxycodone, demerol - stuff like that.

Just this is more a thing that to mee feels like its always been here, not quite always, since puberty. Is it just another teenager thing?