Struggling

[renee18]

Hello. I know I havent been here in awhile and thought it was time to come back for a little bit. I am 24 years old and struggling with eating again. I have bulimia. It has gotton worse with in the last 3 weeks. I find myself starving myself for a full day then the next eating everything. Then the next day starving because I ate some much the day before.

It is just frustrating because I live with two other roommates and I can't take to them about it. It is so hard for me to talk about it when I am going through it at the time.

I have not been able to lose weight because of a medical condition that I now have and it is making me angry. I want to be at a healthy weight but I can't lose the weight to just get to the healthy weight.

Just looking for someone to understand.

Renee

[Chy]

I'm glad to see you back Renee.
What has set you off back to binging? Do you know?
Part of the reason you can't and won't ever loose wait is you have stalled your metabolism.
If you starve yourself your body holds onto every morsel it gets when it gets it.

You know we are here for you though quiet lately, we're always here... so just vent away!

[renee18]

Thanks Chy. It has been a long 6 months for me. I graduated from college and now living with two other roommates and working part time. I cant find a full time job. I have put out a lot of applications though. I have 121 days free from sexual sin and as I have been more free from that my focus went back to food. A few days ago my dad had another heart cath done and it scared my but he only had a 50% blockage and they don't put a stet in until 70% so they are changing my dad's medicine. As for me depression as come back and I am not sure why the depression but I think the binging and eating is more of a control thing for me right now. I have an underactive thyroid and I am on medicine which has help but since being on the medicine I have not been able to lose any weight. That is frustrating. The amount of stress I have been under has been a lot. One of my roommates is moving out next month and we have to find a roommate and if we don't rent goes up and I can't afford for rent to go up. I need to get my stress level under control. There is that word again control.

Renee

[Done-With-It!]

Hey Renee!

Good to see you back. Are you in therapy, or group therapy or anything like that?
I think something like that would help you a lot. Bulimia is so hard to deal with on
your own, it helps to have a plan and people to help you deal with it.

Hugs

[renee18]

Yes I am in counseling. It been hard to share with her because I have only been meeting with her for 3 months now and I am still getting used to her. I meet with her again in two weeks.

Renee