Self esteem and being in public

[Becks]

I have been suffering from bouts of anorexia and bulimia for quite a while now. Lately I have been trying my best to stop this and I have been trying to work myself into normal eating habits and not purging after meals. Since I have been trying to stop, my self esteem has been not real good. Every time I eat around people, even my family, I feel like they are watching me and thinking that Iam an pig and Iam fat etc. No one knows about my eating disorders and I want it to stay like that, but I feel that every time I put food in my mouth, people are watching me and commenting on me. This puts negative thoughts back in my head and I become real self conscious. I just wanted to know if anyone else has this problem and if it will go away.

[CarChick4life]

That happens with me somtimes also, but logically you need to relize that your being parinoid you know? You family isn't actully paying attention to what you eating or thinking about what your eating. Even if it feels like they are. I haven't really found a way to make myself feel any better about that, other then trying to keep reminding myself of logic. Just try to kind of calm yourself down, and convince yourself that they aren't watching. Good luck--I hope things get better for you. I want you to know your honestly not alone in this and if you ever need to talk to anyone please feel free to AIM or MSN or PM me anytime.