Getting harder...

[renee18]

The past few days have been pretty hard for me. I am struggling very hard right now. Last time I struggled this hard was over a year ago. Because of just eating junk food. I don't want to eat regular food or healthy food and when I do eat lets say chicken which is what I ate today it made me stick. It want straight through me. The last time this happened to me was 10 years ago when my eating disorder started. Now I am afriad that I am going to go through everything I went through the first time. I am struggling and not telling anyone. I am embarrassed that I am dealing with this and donut want my friends to be disappointed in me.

Struggling and doin't know what to do anymore.

Renee

[Done-With-It!]

Originally Posted by renee18

The past few days have been pretty hard for me. I am struggling very hard right now. Last time I struggled this hard was over a year ago. Because of just eating junk food. I don't want to eat regular food or healthy food and when I do eat lets say chicken which is what I ate today it made me stick. It want straight through me. The last time this happened to me was 10 years ago when my eating disorder started. Now I am afriad that I am going to go through everything I went through the first time. I am struggling and not telling anyone. I am embarrassed that I am dealing with this and donut want my friends to be disappointed in me.

Struggling and doin't know what to do anymore.

Renee

Well when you get sick and tired of living this way Renee I think that is when you will change. I am not sure what else to say as I've sent you tons of info and places to get help over the last few years and none of it has seemed to be something you wanted to look into or use.

Eating disorders don't get better, so yes, imo, there is a real strong chance that you only keep getting worse.

You are the only one who can decide when you are ready to get help.
Not telling anyone, worrying about other people, etc. ask yourself if the choices you are making are helping or hurting you.

Not trying to be harsh here, but the reality is that eating disorders can and do kill. The cold hard facts of getting better is that it's not easy, and there are no easy routes to get there.
But once you make up your mind to get help and get better, it's much easier than we think.

We're here for you, and I hope things get better. I know how much it sucks to be caught in ED Hell.

Love and Light your way.

[Hopefloats]

Great advice From Miss Done.
No-one gets better on their own, or at least that is my experience.
PLEASE reach out....You don't have to suffer like this any longer. Feeling better can be just a phone call away.

[Chy]

Yes Renee I also agree, you just haven't gotten sick and tired of it to the point of doing something to help yourself. When that happens I hope you do but don't wait to long. I know you're hurting but you have to find a way to get out of self. I see people who are having such a hard time and not care enough about themselves to live and then have to endure loss from my dear friend who only wanted to live.....life is truly backwards.

[renee18]

It is a hard reality of what you are all saying. I have a name of a place and its about 50mins away from me. I checked out the counselings and the place online. It seems like a good place to go. Is it okay to ask someone to go with me?

Renee

[Hopefloats]

Sure Renee...we all take a friend along if we need to. That is more than fine. Maybe after you could just go someplace and chat and have a nice afternoon.....
Good Luck!